Purifying The Soul

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*Announcement*

I’m working on a new poetry and prose book… not sure what the title will be yet!

I wanted to bring you into my process so you can see what it is like rather than simply announcing its publication. Right now I have about 70 pages of rough notes with thoughts collected from various places over the last year or so.

I self published my last poetry book because I didn’t want to wait for someone to believe in me enough to rep me. The work wanted to be born and with Amazon you can get it out into the world.

This current project is at the beginning stages and I am doing my best to nurture and protect it as it is being crafted. I am not sure if I will self publish or have someone rep me. It isn’t up to me. The work has an energy of its own. It will guide me to whatever is meant for its birth.

As the weeks and months go by I’ll keep you posted on my progress.

Here are the current names of the chapters - they could change but this is what is speaking to me right now:

Earth Mother // Grounded

Oceans // Flowing

Wildfire // Purification

Prana // Expression

Space // Unknown

Phoenix // Rebirth

Here is a snippet from chapter Earth Mother:

MAKEOVER

I know now that I am here to express all that is within me. My purpose is the expression of my soul. My life is not solely meant for marriage, money and medals. My priority is to express as much of who I truly am whilst I am here. It is the reason I am here this time. A deep knowing enters my heart that all things will naturally flow to me because this time I am not here just for the pursuit of things alone. All things are here to serve me. Worldly resources are here so I can uplift, expand and harmonise consciousness in collaboration with those who are here with a similar mission. Together, we will be the wave that washes over souls who are craving to be cleansed with new clarity. We are in the process of creating a colourful painting that requires the specific paintbrushes that only we hold. It js time to own our uniqueness and allow it to beautifully paint the canvas of the world. She is ready for a makeover.

Here is a love poem from the chapter Oceans:

HOME

I was finally comfortable being all alone–a wandering soul

Not really knowing home

Then you showed up

and my soul exhaled

it had found its home

not in a place

but in you.

If you enjoy my words and want more while you wait for this new one to be published, you can get my first poetry book Searching in Silence here.

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The word that has been in my heart these last few months is Purify.

I’m feeling the urge to purge all that is impure within me - cleaning myself of all the garbage that’s built up inside and to restore the factory settings.

As we move into the final few months of the year I invite you to let go of all that is no longer you. The energy you are carrying that is no longer resonant for this new version of you that is emerging, let it go.

Let go of the people, places, and things that don’t have a place anymore.

I wrote a prayer yesterday morning that came through after a meditation:

The journey of a truth seeker and a soul searcher isn’t fixed, it is dynamic. It is constantly moving and shifting with the life current of life.

As I ponder this idea of purification there are 4 key areas that come to me:

(1) Mental

What do you believe about your life that is no longer true?

Remove all the thought constructs and stories that are not true about yourself and your life anymore. We all inherit beliefs about how we should live as we move through life. However, some of them do not serve our highest good. Along my healing journey I’ve realised that most problems come from being too much in my head. Getting lost in the beliefs and the conditioning I have about how life is “supposed” to be vs listening to my intuition - the quiet voice that doesn’t use words. Coming home to that voice and giving it space helps guide me authentically through life.

(2) Emotional

What emotion(s) are you ready to let go of?

In the Andean worldview, there is no concept of good or bad. There is only either sami—pure/refined energy—or hoocha—heavy/stagnant energy. Hoocha encompasses worry, fear, pain, sadness, anger etc.

Some of us have been carrying emotions for decades that feel heavy. Let yourself feel them and then let them go. Focus on what emotions you want to embody moving forward.

You are not responsible for other people’s happiness.

(3) Physical

Where do you feel discomfort in your body?

The body is the home of the soul. There are certain areas that feel really tight for me and I’ve felt called to stretch and relax more to help slow down my nervous system. I want to feel fully free in my body again. I continuously adjust my nutrition by paying attention to what feels good in my gut and what doesn’t.

(4) Spiritual

Spiritual purification can be done in many ways. There is no right or wrong. The last few years I have worked with various plant medicines like Ayahuasca, Huachuma, Mushrooms, and Hapé to aid my healing process. They have helped me see and feel parts of my life that I am not able to see clearly on my own. They hold my hand and remind me of what is important. They cleanse me of the energy that is no longer serving me. I only recommend embarking on the journey of medicine if you feel deeply called to. There are other modalities of healing you can pursue which may feel more aligned to you.

Note: embarking on the path of medicine can boost your ego if you are not careful. People use it as a way to escape and/or boast about how much work they have done. This path requires respect and reverence. It is not about quantity, but quality.

A Vessel For Spirit

“In the greatest confusion there is still an open channel to the soul. It may be difficult to find because by midlife it is overgrown, and some of the wildest thickets that surround it grow out of what we describe as our education. But the channel is always there, and it is our business to keep it open, to have access to the deepest part of ourselves.” - Saul Bellow

The reason purification is important is because we are vessels for Spirit to express itself through us.

We are the channel through which potential is given expression. Our role is to usher it into being. To allow it to come through us without judgment and to protect it as it is being birthed.

Ayni is the one law of the Andean mystical traditions. The Inkas believe that our very survival depends upon our keeping this balance. Their main tenet is, “If you give you will receive, and if you receive, you must give.”

Ideas for purification

• Use your journal to scribble or write your thoughts without any structure

• Attend a painting workshop (I did while I was in San Diego, it was phenomenal, that’s for another time)

• Chanting certain mantras or sounds creates vibrations that harmonise your biology

• Deep breaths help you regulate your nervous system

• Set boundaries with people who bring out the worst in you

• Go through the contact list on your phone and delete all those you don’t vibe with

• Use sage and palo santo to cleanse your space and your aura

• Plant your feet on the earth and imagine releasing your heavy energy back to the earth - she is the master alchemist

• Declutter and clean your home thoroughly

I’d like to give a shoutout to

Pathways to Harmony ~Wonder stories

for her beautiful work on Substack. Here’s 3 things I admire about her publication:

1. Iva uses storytelling to weave in beautiful spiritual life lessons. I’d recommend reading her post entitled “Norma and The Flying Horse”

2. She posts a mixture of short and long stuff that is very engaging

3. She is very intentional with her words. Here is a snippet from her “About” section which will give you a flavour of her energy:

“As we move into adulthood we can forget ourselves and lose our connection to to our imagination, our wonder, and our soul’s true song. However, our own authentic voice is the only expression of its kind in all of the universe.  What if recovering that voice is a soul healing?  What if every soul healing is a contribution to a larger collective healing for all species on earth?”

One love ❤️

V

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