Reflections From An Old Soul - PART 1

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Reflections From An Old Soul - PART 1

“If God is your guide, why fear the way?” - Rumi

Most of my previous newsletters are focused on a particular subject or a piece of poetry. However, every now and again, I intuitively weave together threads of random reflections that arise as I navigate this heart, mind, and soul experience we call being human. I really enjoy writing these as it takes away the pressure of needing my work to look a certain way each week + limiting myself to one topic in each piece.

I called this PART 1 because I suspect this will be the first of many.

So, grab a warm brew and settle into a comfortable place…

• There is something profoundly beautiful about simply sharing where you’re at. No preaching. No teaching. Just naming your experiences as best you can. People want to feel you in the midst of your life. There is magic in sharing the mess because perfection doesn’t exist. I think we all know that deep down but we keep chasing it anyway. So, when someone comes along who simply shares how they really feel, it's like a permission slip to exhale. Beauty is found in the journey, not in our destination (because we never really arrive).

• The words you write should scare you. If they don’t, you aren’t going deep enough. The best type of poetry/writing/stories share the deepest parts of our heart and soul—the parts we’re most afraid of the world to see. Something I’m leaning into more this year is sharing as vulnerably as I can. Only from that place can I hope to remotely connect with someone on an emotional level. The words that best describe my mission in this chapter of life are: guiding people on an inner pilgrimage—the one from head to heart to soul.

• I’m currently rewatching one of my favourite tv shows, This Is Us. Here’s a beautiful song from it that I’ve been appreciating—I can feel the love pouring through the lyrics:

• I want to speak more on virtual and physical stages. Having the opportunity to share my story last week reminded me of the passion and purpose I feel for the spoken word. I love sharing my energy through words. It feels natural—like what God intended this time. My magic is in helping people feel emotionally connected through storytelling. To take them on that inner pilgrimage with my words. The theme of my work is to learn how to surrender into life, after wanting to tap out of it for so long. If you know anyone who would be interested in having me speak please connect me. It’s time to inspire, reimagine and elevate the consciousness of souls on this planet so they can live a deeper, purposeful, and more peaceful life.

Sharing my story for a mental health workshop at HSBC last week.

• Love lives in those quiet moments when you’re in awe and you’re speechless. I think it’s life's way of nudging us to feel the magic of the moment instead of trying to verbalise it.

• Difficult situations haven’t made me stronger, they’ve made me softer. In the midst of past pain and suffering I opened my heart to the divine over and over believing better days would come. And sure enough, better days arrived. By going through that heart-opening process it led me to feel more deeply—to connect with others on a more human level. Empathy, compassion, and kindness revealed themselves to me. I began to understand everyone is struggling with a battle I can’t see. I’m only now grasping what Ram Dass meant when he said “suffering is grace”.

• Taking moments to nourish myself daily is important. It’s how I keep my energy balanced so I avoid burning out. I’m learning to find nourishment in the little things: sitting in silence while sipping tea, feeling the leaves of trees/plants when I walk past them, doing my mantra repetitions while feeling the texture of each mala bead, feeling the various sensations in my body while I’m in the shower. Nourishment is found in the beauty of the mundane.

• If you spend long enough with someone you’ll eventually experience all the different sides of them—good and bad.

• “You don’t need to carry that burden anymore. It isn’t a badge of honour. It’s ok to put it down now. You’ve been carrying it long enough”, I remind myself.

• Give yourself permission to dream more.

• “Trust your intuition when making a decision even if there are a million logical reasons why it’s crazy to make that decision. In hindsight, you will thank yourself. You will be led exactly where you need to be. Your way will be a different way and that’s okay.” I tell the 21 year old version of me who just graduated and was scrambling to find his place in the world by desperately holding onto other people’s blueprint to success.

• How much space do you create in your life for you? Space to simply feel? To connect to something creative? To connect to nothing? Sometimes we think we need to do more, but we need to do less. We’re already overworked, overstimulated, and overdriven. How can something new emerge if you don’t create the space for it?

• I often imagine how many times my soul has been planted into another body.

• I’m enjoying spending a few extra minutes making freshly brewed loose leaf tea instead of always using tea bags. There’s something satisfying about seeing the tea in a glass infuser.

Made a fresh pot of sea moss tea I was kindly gifted by a new friend who runs a company called The Moss Way which is fantastic (thanks Harry!). This is not a paid promotion. I’m simply sharing what resonates with me.

• Having a clean space brings my nervous system peace. I like cleaning. It’s therapeutic. To the 9 year old me who used to hate making his bed: in the future it will become a peaceful task that will help regulate your body.

• I’m noticing conversations arising from my ego more. When I say ego I don’t mean arrogance or pride, I mean my identity, my personality. We all have an ego. We need it to be identifiable in this world. It’s usually the place from which our wants and needs arise. One of my friends recently reposted me on Instagram. He has a very large following so I was grateful that he saw the value in my words and shared them. Usually I hit the “Add to story” button right away and repost it (which will show all my followers he’s shared it). However, this time I paused before pressing and asked myself, where is this desire to share coming from? It was coming from a place of insecurity. Deep down I wanted everyone to know that I was friends with someone famous. That I was finally accepted and loved. The desire was coming from the 11 year old me who felt lonely and wanted to be popular so bad. The little boy who craved the approval of others. The pull to reshare was strong because the desire for people to see me as superior was strong. I recognised this pattern and wanted to disrupt it, so I didn’t repost. I told myself, “I let go of this story and I’m ready to create a new one”: It’s ok to shout about my own work because I have value to share with the world—as long as it comes from a genuine place of self-love, not fear. I want to share because I know it is feeding my soul, not because it is giving me an ego boost.

• For me, spirituality is not about removing all desires, but embracing them. Without desire nothing in this world would move forward. It is about the intention behind the desire that matters. For example, am I going to the gym because I love my body or because I hate it? Am I eating food because I’m hungry or bored/depressed? In both instances the desire itself isn’t the problem. Eating food isn’t an issue. Going to the gym isn’t a bad thing. However, if you’re doing it for the wrong reasons, both will be destructive. I’m learning to notice the intention behind my desires more.

• Poets use their soul to think and their heart to speak.

• I’m slowly releasing the heaviness of all the “shoulds” I learnt growing up about all the ways I “should” be living life. I’m carefully dismantling the bars of the prison that it built around me. With each passing year I am gently peeling back all those layers like an onion. Beneath each layer a new sense of freedom awaits.

• My relationship to God is changing. To me, “God” is Consciousness. The energy that animates all things—faceless and nameless. My connection to it is evolving in a deeper and more profound way. This version of me is comfortable using the word God—a high vibration creative energy that I can communicate with. What can I offer to an energy that already is everything? That already has everything? At that level money or favours are of no use. The best thing I can offer is my ego. My ego is the veil that hides the truth of God from me. With each layer that I offer up, the thinner the veil gets, and the more I can access the Shakti (the raw creative energy of God).

• The biggest battles we experience are the ones in our own mind. The deepest conflict is the one unfolding in the darkest and quietest corners of my skull.

• Many of us have years of tears waiting to be cried. I cried a deep cry earlier this week. It felt amazing. The song I shared above set me off. It wasn’t the words as much as it was the energy behind the words that found the centre of my heart. Bullseye.

• Life doesn’t have to be a choice between “this” or “that”. It can be “this” and “this”.

• I was waiting in line to pay for groceries earlier this week. The woman in front of me was taking her time counting her pennies. I could feel the impatience growing inside me. I noticed that I was so used to paying using Apple Pay that I’d forgotten that people even carry coins anymore. It reminded me of a time when I was a young teenager counting my coins at the local shop to pay for the latest Simpsons comic. I was grateful for the memory she sparked in me.

• When does a moment begin and end? No moment is really isolated, not really. Each moment is linked to  an entire chain of previous events. The more you pull on that thread, the more you realise that everything that has happened in your life has led to this moment—right here, right now. Everything is connected.